I do wish too that there will be someone to be there for me and tell me that everything is gonna be okay.
Let me give me a gentle reminder before I begin. This is NOT a hate post, and if whatever I stated had made any of you offended, I truly am sorry for making you sad, pissed or disappointed. I am doing this cause something went over the border line and it had indeed hurt my friends.
This very good friend of mine is infatuated with this sweet girl, but sadly, that girl didn't feel the same way as he did for her. He has a very good personality, and I think it's just a shame that all of the girls who he had liked just never feel the same way.
But he, just like what most of us will do, tried to get closer to her. Maybe to get to know her better, or maybe show his feelings to her someday and hoping she will recite the three words that will make him the happiest guy in the world. He walked her to the bus stop, talked to her and all the many things that you would do to keep the conversation going on and build a strong relationship. Unfortunately, he expected too much from her. He wanted her to be only his. He wanted her to spend her free time lingering around the school compound together. He wanted her to not flirt with other boys.
That, my friend, is what you call controlling.
If you happen to read this, dude, she is only fifteen. She wants to spend time with her friends. She wants to have a chance to flirt with other boys. She wants other boys to be her pet brother, too, not only you. She wants to have fun, cause she will never be fifteen again. She could never turn back the clock and go back to high school again after she graduates. We only live once, and if you missed that chance to have the fun at that point of your life; you missed a part of life experience. Yes, we fall in and out of love a lot in life, but this is how the cycle of life goes, right? I, like you, fall in love with people that had never felt the same way like I do. Don't say that no one knows what it feels like, don't say that no one will ever understand because we all had went/going through this stage, okay? I know it sucks, it hurts so badly and it gets you down. But live strong, dude. Don't let this problem get the best of you.
Life goes on if that person don't like you.
The earth will never stop rotating if someone rejects you.
The clock will never stop ticking if that person you fall in love with had found someone else.
Speaking of this, I have just realized something so important in life. I had never really cared about this so much, but now I do. Your family members plays the biggest role in your life. Nope, not your friends, but your family members. I had a family dinner last Saturday cause my maternal grandparents came down from Perak, and I had to miss MK. I actually didn't regret missing MK. I missed my grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins so much that I was so happy that I attended the dinner. I sat with all of my cousins in the "kiddies table" that night. I realized I had missed their high-pitched laughters and cheerful faces that I have not seen for quite some time. I was thrilled when I caught a glimpse of their familiar faces. I went around chatting and playing with them, and had the thought of how blessed I am to be so close to my beautiful family.
What I was trying to tell you is, even if you don't get to be with the girl of your dreams or break up with your girlfriend/boyfriend, you will always have your family and friends by your side giving you support all the way. You may say that your mom isn't proud of everything you do, or your sibling is irritating; but at the bottom line, they still are part of who you are. I mean, think of this: what will you do/where will you be if you lose them in the blink of an eye? Hell, I would be so damn sad. So damn sad cause there will be no more nagging from my mom or crazy noises that my sister makes. Your friends, on the other hand, will never leave you alone when they see you sad. They will make you share with them your problems cause that's what friends are for. They will never, I repeat, never say words that will discourage you even more. If you think they did, it may be just the way you take their words to account. Friends will be patient and caring to listen to what you have to say. But, don't make your relationship problem such a big fuss that you want the whole wide world to know how desperate and in love you are for her, dude. This feeling is meant to be kept to yourself. I mean, it's kinda awkward if she already knew the way you feel for her when you are about to tell her. She might have even have an answer on her mind. Whatever it is, this particular feeling is only meant for yourself and the friends you trust. And it hurts to question your friends about the feeling of being ignored by his/her crush. Please, don't ever do that again.
If she doesn't like you, it's not the end of the world. Frankly speaking, she might not be the one you're looking for. If you say she is, how sure are you? What if there are other girls out there that matches all your criteria to be your perfect girlfriend/wife?
Yes, it hurts to wait for an answer. Panic and fear swims through your blood everyday, thinking about her answer if she wants to give you. Let me ask you, what is the pain you currently feel compared to others out there who had a divorce? Or patients who had survived dangerous diseases/sickness like leukemia, cancer and diabetes? Or disabled people, homeless people and natural disasters survivors? They had a harder time then you do. They went through so much pain. But they are stronger than you. They compile themselves and live their life no matter how dreadful it is to go on. Their family members will have a hard time as well, but they don't just give up on life. They have to be strong and go on with life and give support to them. And these people- victims and patients- can still smile and thank God for a life that meant so much to them. What about you? Don't you feel ashamed that you couldn't lift your cheekbones to carve a smile on your face in front of everyone? If they can, you can too. You are just not trying hard enough.
I was browsing through YouTube the other day and I found this. Take this pretty nine year old girl who is suffering from leukemia as an example. She requested to be married with her seven year old friend she met at the hospital who is also suffering from leukemia because she only have a few more weeks to live. I was amazed, because she has the energy to smile during the interview although she is so sick. She had a beautiful wedding, and her mom had said that everyone who was present would never have think that she was very sick. The interviewer had also asked her what would she do if she gets to meet her favorite band, the Jonas Brothers, in person. Hiding her excitement, she said in a tiny voice that she will cry. The Jonas Brothers did pay her a visit in her home and they even sang her the song she danced with the love of her life on their wedding day, Lovebug. I was so darn touched by her survival and her will to live her life to the fullest that I found myself crying. I asked myself why I couldn't be as strong as she is. She is only nine, and she could do handle the amount of pain she felt for years, but I am incapable of staying positive and handling my problems.
I can't think of anything else to say to you now. Just so you know, I am not talking bad about you or being a bad friend. I will support you until the end and I will be there for you as what a friend would do. Dude, you just need to open up your mind and look at the brighter side of the day. Let the sunlight light up your world and set those grey clouds aside. You only live once, so make your life a good one. Don't waste your time being sad over small things cause we live in imperfection and that's just the way things roll. You are a great guy, and I believe that there will be someone out there for you who will appreciate you for who you are. Please do make an effort to thank your friends who were there to hear you out and help you with your problems. Smile more, think positive, and live your life like how you should do it.
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I know the feeling of needing that someone.