Go straight ahead. Never take detours.
Tuning into the song Fifteen by Taylor Swift.
On the night of October 20, she took off a few minutes of her study time to tune into Fifteen by Taylor Swift, reminiscing the 15 years of her life. The clock is ticking away, regardless if she wants to stop time and erase all the bitter memories she had and repeat those happy memories. Barely laying her eyes on the time, she still kept in mind that she is going to be another year older when the clock strikes midnight. She knew time is the best remedy to heal a broken heart. Like so many other teenagers with their raging hormones, she is still searching for her real identity, sometimes not knowing where she stands in this cruel world filled with heartbreaks and lies. Torn apart of everything that happened upon her, she held back from shedding tears as the song comes to the last chorus.
Cause when you're fifteen
And somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Don't forget to look before you fall
I found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was suppose to be
At fifteen
-Fifteen by Taylor Swift.
Okay, that is so not the initial plan for today's post. I just felt like doing some writing to start off the post. :D
A best friend of mine I've known for 4 years (and still counting on) had blown candles off the birthday cake (it's just a metaphor instead of saying birthday) on October 21, which is the first day of the finals of year 2009. She tuned into Taylor Swift's Fifteen while taking a break from studying on the night of October 20.
I still remember our first conversation. That was during Scouts Recruit Camp year 2006, when we were cooking lunch (Maggi noodles, to be specific) under the sun. We were in the same patrol, and none of my friends were in the same patrol with me, so I saw a lonely soul (like me!) and started talking to her. I approached her like a shy kid, said hi and give a self introduction. I was shocked that she speaks fluent English and she was from Chinese school. That was the first culture shock I got ever since I stepped my foot in the gates of high school. She started telling me about stuff, and I was lucky that my friends were in different patrols. And it was the time when she realized that there was two of me. It's hilarious to see the look upon her face when she knew!
Year 2007 was even better! It was my first time in an actual marching team. Sis and I bonded with her better. CFN preparation was a blast too. We worked on props, mainly the roof of a kampung house. We always have massive chats and soon, we were best buddies. And she did something I would never forget for the rest of my life. I was so thrilled until I screamed when she called me to share the good news with me. And I hugged her the next time I saw her and thanked her. You know what I mean, do you?
The following year was even better than year 2007. As Form 3s, we sort of dominated the Muda board. I still remember the Annual Camp, when we hid our cell phones and 100 Plus. Oh yes, the "100 Plus incident". Thinking about it is enough to give me a good laugh. And that is when we were watermelon dudes, jakuns and hooligans. Ah, the good old memories. Remember Enrollment Day when a bunch of us invaded your house and cut off badges together and took tons of pics in school before the event? It was a blast.
The best year of high school, so far, this year when we were Remajas. The Valentine's Day project was a good one. Then, the Earth Hour Party gave her an idea to celebrate events together. Speaking of the party, I loved the Twister game the most! Then there were yum cha sessions after meetings every Saturday. I remember during the first outdoor camp we had back in May, I was her Pikachu. I was a bad one for not writing letters to check on her frequently. Remember abseiling? I was crying and you were there to encourage me to accomplish the task. It was really brave of you to finish the task too. And the super awesome sleepover we had in her "hotel room" the night before the day we Form 4s took over. We were running to school the next morning cause we slept at 2.30 am! Oh, and the secret meetings we had at her place before Enrollment Day. Ah, the year has been a good one for us.
Wrapping up things, I have so many things I wanted to say but never had the chance to. You know what, you are an awesome person. I would describe you as a mature girl your age. Seriously, you have some deep thinking there. Like what my Mom said, you are a strong person inside out. Honestly. I've never met anyone so courageous like you, despite everything that had happened upon you. Sometimes I wish I was as strong as you are, you know. I know there were times I wasn't there for you and couldn't understand how you felt. And I feel bad for not being able to understand you the way you expected me to do so. I am so very sorry if I had ever hurt you in any way because you don't deserve anything like that from anyone.
I think you and I both know that there were so many things that were just a faux, but others just made it seemed like it was entirely your fault. Out of all the heart-to-heart conversations that we had, I grew to understand you better. And I know you're a good person. You're smart, super lame, fun, hyper and deep. You are so unique and original in your own way that there can't possibly be two of you. No words can describe how awesome you are as an individual.
I hope you're at the edge of crying at this point, SIA ZHEN NI, cause I am already shedding tears. Yeah, cross my heart. I can't say much here, but I think you get me, right? You're way beyond awesome, best friend. I lub you very much. :')
HAPPY BELATED SWEET 16!
Yes, I lub you so much that Denise is even jealous. :P
I sorta purposely cover Fifteen first of all songs I wanna cover because I want to dedicate this to you when I do your Sweet 16 post. See, I sayang you banyak-banyak laaaaa. :D
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School today was a blast! Played guitar (lend Nee Cole's) and UNO and heart attack with Yee Fung, Wen Lee, Leon, Denise, Sis and Shauna. I'm so bringing Joe to school tomorrow. :D:D:D
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To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cause I saved a few and I keep them
Fireflies by Owl City.