I’m a problematic 15-year-old teenager. Yes, I am.
I have no idea what’s wrong with me lately, I don’t know why I’m behaving childishly. I felt that I’m being a jerk lately. I don’t know what the hell is my problem. I swear, I don’t know.
Mom and dad, if you guys are reading this; I have no idea why I’m behaving in such manner. When either you guys scold me for the –huge and tiny– mistakes I’ve made, I get pissed. Like, really pissed. It’s just like a sudden emotion that takes over me. I don’t know why. When you guys ask for a favor, I rolled my eyes behind your backs. Maybe you guys saw it, maybe you guys didn’t; but I swear, I didn’t want to do it, really.
I can see the disappointment and anger in both of your eyes when I reacted like that. I don’t want to behave like this, but I don’t know why I’m doing this. I feel like there’s someone trapped in my body. Someone else, but it’s not me. I know you guys have a rough time at work, and now that I’m an extra burden to you both, I feel guilty. I wanted to apologize face to face to you guys about this, but I have no guts to even talk about this. You know why, Mom and Dad? I feel ashamed of myself, cause I’ve been acting like a fool. I’m being selfish and not thinking of you guys. But I didn’t want to behave like this, it’s true. I know, I’m being a pain in the ass.
Believe me, Mom and Dad, I’m still your daughter, still your girl. I’m not turning into some bitchy bimbo 15 going 16 teenage girl. I am very sorry that I have to apologize this way, but this is what a coward would do if he/she wants to apologize so badly to his/her loved ones. I’m done explaining and apologizing. It’s up to you guys to believe whether I’m your old girl or your old girl wearing a new attitude that you guys dislike.
Broke your hearts, now I know.
Here I am, saying what I need to say.
Mom and Dad, you guys are the best parents in the world.
Therefore I apologize, for being a disappointment to both of you.
I’m sorry, from the bottom of my heart.
Believe me, I meant every word I typed.
I’m just human, I’m imperfect; I make mistakes.
I wish I could be the same like the rest. To have what I want in life; to have someone like you..:.:.:.:$[u]E t[E]nG:.:.:.:.
I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do.