Life behind closed doors is always a mystery.
Gosh, you have no idea how depressed I was for the past few days. I literally felt lifeless. I was upset, angry with myself, hurt... And I think about so many things for the very first time. From my dark past to how people could be so mean. I kinda like it when I am feeling down cause I look at things from various perspectives and find answers to my questions.
But, feeling down has bad sides too. One, I spoil others' mood. Two, I make my friends hear me rant and whine (those poor fellas). Three, I tend to shed some tears. Four, I get really cranky. Five, my mood changes constantly (I can be happy at one moment, and the next thing you know I am crying my eyeballs out). See, this is how crazy I could be.
Speaking about friends, they've been a great help to me. Thank you to those of you who comforted and cared for me. A big thank you to Kelly, Liesl, Zhen Ni and Sis for lending an ear and taking in all of my ranting and whining for the past few days. You poor fellas. You people have been great. I'm sorry for troubling you guys. I know, I am a little tough to persuade and comfort, but you people did a good job. I really do appreciate you guys for being there for me. It means a lot to me to have you guys to support me. There's no more to be said, cause actions speaks louder than words. Thank you, for being my rock through my ups and downs.
Getting disappointed is a part of growing up, I realized. If you never get turned down before, you'll never know. It hurts in such a way, but it made me wake up from my daydream. People could be so mean to you no matter how well you treat them. I guess this is just how life is, correct? The people who walked in and out of your life and what they did is just another chapter in our lives. Despite what they did, whether they make you smile for a whole week or make you cry for the whole year, they are still the people that you'll love and cherish the most until the end of time. Yes, you might want to strangle them to death for causing you a heartbreak and say that you hate them forever for 2570864193 times, but in the end, you will never find yourself doing such things. Eventually, you will find yourself giving in and accepting them for who they are because love conquers the heart.
Nick Jonas sings Black Keys and A Little Bit Longer while playing the piano.
I happen to stumble upon this video on YouTube earlier today when I was just watching random videos from the Jonas Brothers' summer tour (yes I am a big fan of the boys do you have a problem with me?). After Black Keys, Nick Jonas gave a so-called speech regarding to the song A Little Bit Longer about his feelings when he was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes. I was truly inspired by his strong will to strive to do better in his career and not letting his illness slow him down. His so-called speech was so inspiring that my eyes were wet at the end of the video. Thank you, Nick Jonas, for inspiring me and keep me moving. =')
Now, I am looking on the brighter side of the day. I am filled with excitement for the weekend and happiness cause I know that my friends will be there for me somehow. Thank you, pals, for being the best people on my list. You guys made my day.
P.S: Last Scouts general meeting in a few hours' time. =')
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"I am trying
Not to tell youBut I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head"
Fallin' For You by Colbie Calliat.